Want What I Will

[Verse 1]
You hand me the list with a look that says hurry
I leave my own plans by the edge of the day
One small thing missed and the room turns to worry
You count what I dropped, not the hours I gave

[Pre-Chorus]
I know every need before it is spoken
I swallow my answer to keep yours in place
But something in me is still wide awake

[Chorus]
I want a life with my name on the choices
A little more air, a little less owed
I can love you and still choose my own way
I can step out and carry my load
I want a life that I get to discover
Not measured by every request I fulfill
I can love you and still choose my own way
And I’m learning to want what I will

[Verse 2]
You call it a failure when one detail’s missing
No word for the things I postponed to be there
I’m tired of arranging my wants around wishes
Then hearing I’m selfish for needing some care

[Bridge]
If I take one turn that belongs to me
Will you see all the roads I’ve walked for you?

[Chorus]
I want a life with my name on the choices
A little more air, a little less owed
I can love you and still choose my own way
I can step out and carry my load
I want a life that I get to discover
Not measured by every request I fulfill
I can love you and still choose my own way
And I’m learning to want what I will

[Outro]
My own way, my own way
I’m learning to want what I will