Not a Life I Break in

[Verse 1]
Some days I want the whole frame gone,
Every careful wall turned into dust.
To wake where nothing has a name,
And choose the shape of what comes next.

[Pre-Chorus]
The thought runs hot, almost like joy,
A clean white page, a door thrown wide.
Then I remember who would hear it,
And every face I leave behind.

[Chorus]
I want to watch it all come down,
To feel the first breath of the unknown.
But I can’t call it freedom
If it leaves you there alone.
So I hold the match beneath my hand,
And let the wild idea pass.
I want a life that breaks wide open—
Not a life I break in half.

[Bridge]
It isn’t fear that keeps me here.
It’s your voice when the room goes still.
I can want the end of everything
And still choose what I won’t kill.

[Final Chorus]
I want to watch it all come down,
To feel the first breath of the unknown.
But I can’t call it freedom
If it leaves you there alone.
So I hold the match beneath my hand,
And let the wild idea pass.
I want a life that breaks wide open—
Not a life I break in half.

[Outro]
Not a life I break in half.
I stay. I stay.