The landslide

[Verse 1]
Some nights I want the whole thing loose,
The careful stack, the borrowed rules.
One hard shove and every room
Could turn to open, unmarked blue.
I picture silence after the crash,
A clean first line, no looking back.
Then I catch your face inside that thought,
And feel the cost of what I want.

[Pre-Chorus]
I want the rush, the falling frame,
Then hear your voice inside the flame.

[Chorus]
I could let it all come down,
Watch the pieces hit the ground.
Start again with nothing planned—
But I know who’d feel the landslide.
I want out, I want the air,
I want the nerve to not care.
Then your hurt comes into view,
And I stay because I care for you.

[Verse 2]
Not every crack means I should run,
Not every ending clears the sun.
I can want a different life
Without making yours collateral.
So I’ll loosen what has grown too tight,
Change one true thing tonight.
No grand escape, no scorched goodbye—
Just a smaller, braver try.

[Bridge]
If I could start from zero,
Would I miss the hands that held me?
If I could burn the whole design,
Would I call that freedom—or just leave you behind?

[Final Chorus]
I could let it all come down,
Watch the pieces hit the ground.
Start again with nothing planned—
But I know who’d feel the landslide.
I want out, I want the air,
I want the nerve to not care.
Then your hurt comes into view,
And I stay because I care for you.

[Outro]
I don’t have to break the whole thing.
I can change what isn’t working.
I can want a different life—
And still keep you in mine.