The Better Ghost

[Verse 1]
I keep a list behind the kitchen door
The names of all the selves I should have been
One speaks in perfect plans and polished shoes
One never lets the afternoon come in

I spill the tea, I miss the turn
I say too much, then take it back
The good I do is still my own
The crooked line is still my track

[Pre-Chorus]
You don't have to make me new
You can let the whole thing through

[Chorus]
I am not the almost-version
Not the prize I couldn't win
I can live inside this body
With the weather moving in
Let the better ghost keep walking
I won't chase it down the road
I have hands to hold this moment
I have room to bear my own

[Verse 2]
The sink is full, the rent is due
My old blue jacket lost a button
I call my sister just to hear
Her tell the story wrong and laughing

Some days I am a locked-up room
Some days a window left ajar
Both can stand beneath the same sky
Both can make it where they are

[Pre-Chorus]
You don't have to make me new
You can let the whole thing through

[Chorus]
I am not the almost-version
Not the prize I couldn't win
I can live inside this body
With the weather moving in
Let the better ghost keep walking
I won't chase it down the road
I have hands to hold this moment
I have room to bear my own

[Bridge]
I see you at the far end of the hall
With every answer ready, standing tall
But I have grown a life you never knew
A chipped cup, open windows, people who
Know when I go quiet, let me be
And leave a little space beside the tea

[Final Chorus]
I am not the almost-version
Not the prize I couldn't win
I can live inside this body
With the weather moving in
Let the better ghost keep walking
I won't chase it down the road
I have hands to hold this moment
I have room to bear my own

[Outro]
The list can stay behind the door
I don't have to read it anymore