A Friend That Isn't One

[Verse 1]
I keep the sugar in the drawer
Beside the note that says enough
I count the hours, lock the door
Then turn the key because it’s rough

[Pre-Chorus]
I know the shape of what comes next
The little lie, the borrowed calm
I hate the wreckage in the morning
I love how quiet it feels at once

[Chorus]
I give in, I give in
Just to make the shaking stop
I give in, I give in
Then I wake beneath the cost
You can call it what it is
I still reach for it again
I give in, I give in
Like a friend that isn’t one

[Verse 2]
I wash the cup and hide the stain
I swear this time I’ll leave it clean
Then every nerve begins to bargain
For the softest way to disappear

[Pre-Chorus]
I know the shape of what comes next
The little lie, the borrowed calm
I hate the wreckage in the morning
I love how quiet it feels at once

[Chorus]
I give in, I give in
Just to make the shaking stop
I give in, I give in
Then I wake beneath the cost
You can call it what it is
I still reach for it again
I give in, I give in
Like a friend that isn’t one

[Bridge]
Hold my hand till the urge goes thin
Say my name till I’m back within
I don’t want the comfort it brings
I just want the quiet it lends

[Final Chorus]
I give in, I give in
Just to make the shaking stop
I give in, I give in
Then I wake beneath the cost
You can call it what it is
I still reach for it again
I give in, I give in
But I’m trying not to run

[Outro]
I’m trying not to run
I’m trying not to run