A Life I Never-Lived Life

[Verse 1]
I keep a list beside the bed
Of names I mean to overtake
A salary, a better face
A heart that never learns to wait

[Pre-Chorus]
I call the sprint a staircase
I call the hunger drive
Each rung says, just a little more
Each morning eats the why

[Chorus]
I want the house, the hand, the crown
I want the proof they’ll keep me around
I build a life I never live in
I reach for more, and don’t begin

[Verse 2]
The inbox fills like winter rain
My mother asks when I’ll come by
I say next month, then next quarter
And buy a watch to mark the lie

[Pre-Chorus]
I turn a date into a target
A kiss into a test
I chase the version they applaud
And leave the rest unaddressed

[Chorus]
I want the house, the hand, the crown
I want the proof they’ll keep me around
I build a life I never live in
I reach for more, and don’t begin

[Bridge]
If I put both feet on the ground
Would I still count as someone?
If nobody saw me win
Could I stay for what I’ve become?

[Final Chorus]
I want the house, the hand, the crown
But hear the quiet asking now
A seed won’t grow beneath a deadline
A heart needs somewhere safe to lie

[Outro]
I cross one thing off the page:
Be here. Stay. Begin.