Back to Me

[Intro]
I left the porch light on again
Though you were gone before the rain

[Verse 1]
I gave you Sundays, gave you sleep
Kept every promise yours to keep
Your coat still hangs beside the door
I don’t know who I’m waiting for

I learned to bend before you asked
Made every hurt a thing that passed
Now every road divides in two
And both of them run back to you

[Pre-Chorus]
One sign says stay, one sign says leave
One holds the life I used to dream
My hands are full of what I gave
How do I choose what I can save?

[Chorus]
At the fork where the white lines part
I can’t tell fear from a faithful heart
I loved you wide, I loved you blind
Left too little of myself behind
If I turn back, I lose my way
If I walk on, I lose what we made
Tell me, when every road feels true
Which one leads me back to me, not you?

[Group Chant]
Back to me!
Back to me!

[Verse 2]
Your coffee cup is chipped and blue
I still set out a place for two
The map is soft from being held
The roads all cross where we once fell

I know your laugh, your closing door
The careful steps across the floor
But love can’t be the only thing
That makes a life worth living in

[Pre-Chorus]
One sign says stay, one sign says leave
One holds the life I used to dream
My hands are full of what I gave
How do I choose what I can save?

[Chorus]
At the fork where the white lines part
I can’t tell fear from a faithful heart
I loved you wide, I loved you blind
Left too little of myself behind
If I turn back, I lose my way
If I walk on, I lose what we made
Tell me, when every road feels true
Which one leads me back to me, not you?

[Bridge]
I don’t need to call you cruel
To know I’ve broken my own rules
I don’t need to make you small
To stop answering every call

Maybe care can have a gate
Maybe no can come before too late
I can miss you and still go
Both things can be true, I know

[Final Chorus]
At the fork where the white lines part
I’ll take the road that gives me heart
I loved you wide, I loved you long
But I was there before the song
If I turn back, I know the cost
If I walk on, I grieve what’s lost
I’ll choose the path I couldn’t see
The one that leads me back to me

[Choir]
Back to me!
Back to me!

[Outro]
The porch light waits; I let it shine
For whoever walks this road next time
I close the gate, I take my coat
And leave one promise in my throat

[Soft Vocal]
I’ll come back to me