Choosing Myself

[Verse 1]
I learned that good people stay
When every instinct says to run.
They carry weight without complaining,
Put themselves behind everyone.

So I became dependable,
The one who always understands,
While every dream I postponed
Slowly slipped between my hands.

[Pre-Chorus]
If kindness costs me everything,
At what point is it just fear?
If everybody needs me,
Am I allowed to disappear?

[Chorus]
I want to be happy,
I want to be good.
I wish those roads crossed
As often as they should.

Because choosing myself
Feels like leaving someone behind,
And doing the right thing
Keeps stealing pieces of my life.

Tell me, can a good heart
Sometimes say, “I’ve had enough”?
Can I choose what makes me happy
Without betraying everyone I love?

[Verse 2]
I know duty has a beauty.
I know promises should mean things.
But a promise made from guilt
Can quietly become a chain.

[Bridge]
Maybe goodness isn't suffering.
Maybe love isn't self-erasure.
Maybe giving from an empty heart
Doesn't make the giving greater.

[Final Chorus]
I want to be happy.
I still want to be good.
Maybe I can choose myself
More often than I thought I could.

If loving everyone requires
That I hate the life I live,
Maybe being good means learning
I deserve some joy to give.