Forty One Forty Two

[Verse 1]
Worrying that medical advice will change
One doctor says yes, another says wait
I read the chart, then read it again
My mind keeps moving the goalpost

[Pre-Chorus]
Pressure on me every day
To track it all, to make it perfect
Count every sign, count every step
I can't let go, I can't unlearn it

[Chorus]
Forty one, forty two
I keep checking on you
Fear of illness, fear of touch
Ordinary things feel like too much
Forty one, forty two
I keep checking on you

[Verse 2]
Fear of illness spreading through ordinary contact
A hand on my sleeve, and I'm back on alert
Door handles, phones, and a crowded room
Every small thing feels like a verdict

[Pre-Chorus]
Pressure on me every day
To track it all, to make it perfect
Count every sign, count every step
I can't let go, I can't unlearn it

[Chorus]
Forty one, forty two
I keep checking on you
Fear of illness, fear of touch
Ordinary things feel like too much
Forty one, forty two
I keep checking on you

[Bridge]
If the rules keep shifting shape
Tell me where the safe line is
I want one calm answer
I want my hands to stop shaking

[Final Chorus]
Forty one, forty two
I keep checking on you
Fear of illness, fear of touch
Ordinary things feel like too much
Forty one, forty two
I keep checking on you