I'm Afraid, Still Choosing

[Verse 1]
I count the locks twice before I leave
Fold every answer into my sleeve
The room gets smaller when I hesitate
I call it caution, but I know its name

[Pre-Chorus]
Every worst-case picture
Hangs behind my eyes
I keep rehearsing failure
Like it’s a safe disguise

[Chorus]
I’m afraid, but I’m moving
One hand on the wall
If my knees start shaking
I won’t call it a fall
I’m afraid, still choosing
To step into the open
The door was never holding me
I was waiting to be broken

[Verse 2]
I hear my old mistakes through the bathroom fan
They list the reasons I don’t think I can
A cheap blue notebook, a red-ink scar
Says I’m not ready, says I’ve gone too far

[Pre-Chorus]
But every hard confession
Leaves a little room
The air feels different
When I stop asking who approves

[Chorus]
I’m afraid, but I’m moving
One hand on the wall
If my knees start shaking
I won’t call it a fall
I’m afraid, still choosing
To step into the open
The door was never holding me
I was waiting to be broken

[Bridge]
Let the doubt sit beside me
It can ride, it can watch
I don’t need to defeat it
To give everything I’ve got
There’s a pulse in my fingers
There’s a mark on the frame
I can leave with the trembling
And still answer my name

[Final Chorus]
I’m afraid, but I’m moving
Both feet through the hall
If my knees start shaking
I’ll keep answering the call
I’m afraid, still choosing
With my hands wide open
The door was never holding me
I’m the one who finally opened

[Outro]
I carry the fear
It doesn’t carry me