If I Choose the Sun

[Verse 1]
There's sunlight through the doorway.
There's a life outside this room.
But someone that I care for
Needs me standing in the gloom.

If I leave, I might be happy.
If I stay, they won't be alone.
And no philosophy can tell me
Which direction leads me home.

[Chorus]
If I choose the sun,
Who freezes in my shadow?
If I choose to stay,
How much of myself will go?

Every happy ending
Seems to charge somebody pain.
I keep searching for an answer
Where nobody loses anything.

But life doesn't work that way.
Every road refuses some.
So tell me how to still be good
If I decide to choose the sun.

[Verse 2]
I envy simple stories
Where the righteous choice is clear.
Where sacrifice feels beautiful
And love defeats the fear.

Real life is made of tradeoffs,
Of competing kinds of care.
Sometimes being there for someone
Means you cannot be elsewhere.

[Bridge]
Maybe morality is messy
Because people matter too.
Not just strangers, not just family,
Not just them and not just you.

And I am also someone
Whose happiness has weight.
I can't remove myself completely
From the lives my choices shape.

[Final Chorus]
If I choose the sun,
I'll carry what it costs.
I won't call every consequence
Someone else's loss.

I'll try to leave with kindness.
I'll try to stay when staying's right.
But I won't call myself immoral
Just for wanting some delight.