Lose Myself

[Verse 1]
There's a road I want to follow
That will disappoint a few.
Every mile looks like freedom,
Every mile feels cruel to you.

I could stay where I'm expected,
Keep the picture clean and whole,
But every day I play that person
Something disappears inside my soul.

[Chorus]
Is it selfish if I'm happy?
Is it noble if I break?
How much misery is righteous?
How much joy am I allowed to take?

I don't want to hurt you.
I don't want to lose myself.
Why does doing what I need
Feel like choosing me above everyone else?

[Verse 2]
You can sacrifice so beautifully
That nobody sees you drown.
They'll call you strong and loyal
While your whole world closes down.

And selfishness can wear disguises.
Freedom isn't always kind.
Sometimes chasing your own happiness
Leaves somebody else's heart behind.

[Bridge]
So I can't hide behind slogans:
“Follow dreams” or “do what's right.”
Every choice creates a shadow.
Every yes extinguishes some light.

I just want enough courage
To accept whatever choosing costs,
Without pretending that my happiness
Means nobody else gets lost.

[Final Chorus]
Maybe selfish isn't evil.
Maybe sacrifice isn't good.
Maybe character is choosing
With the clearest heart you could.

I will try to cause less sorrow.
I will own the wounds I make.
But I can't spend my only lifetime
Living choices I can't take.