Not Just a Plan

[Verse 1]
I learned your quiet like a warning bell
Still brought my weather in and let it swell
I call it honesty when I unload
Then wonder why you take the longer road

[Pre-Chorus]
I keep laying tripwires where we try to meet
Then act surprised when love retreats

[Chorus]
I’m trying to love you without making it hurt
To hold what you tell me, not turn it to dirt
I’m mapping the places my fear put a flame
I want to come closer and carry my blame

[Verse 2]
You said, “I need a minute,” I heard goodbye
I built a whole courtroom from one tired sigh
I know my old defenses learned to bite
But you shouldn’t have to lose sleep every night

[Pre-Chorus]
I can’t erase the marks I left behind
But I can stop calling them your design

[Chorus]
I’m trying to love you without making it hurt
To hold what you tell me, not turn it to dirt
I’m mapping the places my fear put a flame
I want to come closer and carry my blame

[Bridge]
Tell me where the ground gives way
I’ll listen first; I won’t explain
One careful step, then one more true
I’m learning how to stay with you

[Final Chorus]
I’m trying to love you without making it hurt
To hold what you tell me, not turn it to dirt
I’ll mark every minefield, disarm what I can
And love you with patience, not just a plan
[Outro]
Not just a plan