NOWHERE AND EVERYWHERE

[Intro: lone piano, distant train ambience]

[Spoken, low]
I always stay
until leaving hurts everyone.

[Pause]

Including me.

[Verse 1: intimate, restrained]

I learn the walls
I learn the names
I learn the rituals and little games

I make a home
I mean it too
That’s the cruelest part of what I do

I don’t arrive with one foot gone
I plant the roots
I carry on

Then somewhere deep beneath the floor
I hear another road
Behind another door

[Backing Vocals]
Stay
Go
Stay
Go

[Lead]
I wish my heart
Would choose one word

[Pre-Chorus: drums rising]

By the time I know
I need to leave

There are people
Who learned to believe

That I was permanent
That I was home

And I hate the way
My truth arrives so slow

[Chorus: huge guitars]

I BELONG NOWHERE
I BELONG EVERYWHERE

Every city feels like mine
Until I need another air

Every love becomes a universe
Every road becomes a prayer

I give my whole heart
Then discover

It was never built
To stay just there

[Verse 2: driving rhythm]

I’ve worn careers like favorite coats
Built identities from careful notes

“This is who I am”
“This is where I’ll be”

Then six months later
There’s another me

Another subject
Another town
Another reason to tear it down

Not from boredom
Not from spite

I just keep seeing
Too many possible lives

[Backing Vocals]
This one!
That one!
Both!
Again!

[Lead]
How do you commit
When every door says “When?”

[Pre-Chorus]

And the worst part is
I love them all

The people
The places
The rise and fall

So every pivot leaves a scar
Because I never leave
Before things matter

[Chorus]

I BELONG NOWHERE
I BELONG EVERYWHERE

Every person leaves a room in me
Every life leaves something there

I want roots
I want wings
I want contradictory things

I give my whole heart
Then discover

I can’t promise
One forever thing

[Bridge: drums drop, piano only]

[Soft Vocal]
Maybe I stayed too long
Trying to become
Someone who could stay

Maybe I confused
Consistency
With virtue

Maybe leaving earlier
Would have hurt less

[Pause]

But I didn’t know.

[String swell]

I keep thinking
The next life will fit

The next city
The next love
The next version of it

Then the horizon starts singing again

[Drums build]

And God help me

I still want to listen

[Final Chorus: key change]

I BELONG NOWHERE
I BELONG EVERYWHERE

I AM HOME IN EVERY MOMENT
UNTIL THE MOMENT NEEDS REPAIR

I will break hearts
Including mine

Trying to outrun
A straightened line

Maybe I was never built
For one road

One name

One life

One design

[Choir]
Nowhere!
Everywhere!

[Lead]
I don’t know
If that’s freedom
Or a flaw

[Choir]
Nowhere!
Everywhere!

[Lead]
I only know
I feel the pull
Before I know the cost

[Final Refrain: music strips back]

If I love you
Please believe me

If I leave you
Please believe me too

Both can be true
And that’s the wound

I can mean forever
In the moment

And still become
Someone new

[Outro: train sound slowly approaching]

[Soft Vocal]
I wish I knew
How to choose one path

[Pause]

But every road
Still looks like home

[Final unresolved chord]