The Good Feel Far Away

[Verse 1]
The sun keeps showing up on time
My rent is paid, the dog is fine
Your laugh is spilling down the hall
I get the good news, feel nothing at all

I know the names of what I love
The full bright list, the living proof
Still my hands go slack mid-day
Like I misplaced the part that says okay

[Pre-Chorus]
I count the green lights, count the wins
Then feel that old drop settle in
I tell myself, “Look, you’re alright”
My heart says, “Sure,” and dims the light

[Chorus]
Why can’t I reach what’s right here?
Why does the good feel far away?
I’m grateful, I mean it, I swear
Still I can’t make the heavy lift today
There’s nothing wrong I can point to
No fire, no wreckage, no clear why
I’ve got a life I love around me
And still some days I can’t get by

[Verse 2]
The weekend opens wide and kind
A friend saves me the window seat
We trade old stories, split dessert
I smile on cue, then miss the beat

I don’t want pity, don’t want to pretend
That being lucky means I’m fine
I can hold both facts at once, I guess:
This life is good; this feeling’s mine

[Pre-Chorus]
I count the green lights, count the wins
The ache is here; it doesn’t mean
I’m blind to every gift I’ve got
Or that the good was all I dreamed

[Chorus]
Why can’t I reach what’s right here?
Why does the good feel far away?
I’m grateful, I mean it, I swear
Still I can’t make the heavy lift today
There’s nothing wrong I can point to
No fire, no wreckage, no clear why
I’ve got a life I love around me
And still some days I can’t get by

[Bridge]
Maybe I don’t have to solve it
Maybe naming it is enough
I can let the good stay good
While I’m having a harder month

[Final Chorus]
Why can’t I reach what’s right here?
Why does the good feel far away?
I’m grateful, I mean it, I swear
And I can take this hour as it weighs
There’s nothing wrong I can point to
No simple fix, no clean reply
I’ve got a life I love around me
And I’m still here, though I don’t know why
[Outro]
I’m still here
I’m still here