Unworthy of Love

[Verse 1]
I learned your birthdays, your coffee, your scars
Kept spare apologies folded in jars
I answered every call before it could ring
Made room at the table, gave away everything

I wore every silence like somebody’s coat
Held all your weather inside my throat
Now I count the names carved under my skin
And wonder what kind of love lets me in

[Pre-Chorus]
I gave until giving became my disguise
A generous hand with a locked pair of eyes
If you saw what is left when the crowd disappears
Would you call it a heart, or a handful of years?

[Chorus]
I feel unworthy of love
I spent mine like water on everyone
I poured out the best of me
Now there’s barely a drop when you reach for me
I feel unworthy of love
Too many doors, too many vows undone
If you hold me, hold me slow
I’m learning I’m more than the places I go

[Verse 2]
I knew how to listen, I knew how to stay
I made my own hunger wait another day
Your emergencies slept in the room by my bed
While my little disasters went quietly unfed

I called it devotion, I called it repair
But love without limits can vanish in air
Now kindness feels guilty, and rest feels like theft
I’m afraid that a heart can be emptied of depth

[Pre-Chorus]
I gave until giving became my disguise
A generous hand with a locked pair of eyes
If you saw what is left when the crowd disappears
Would you call it a heart, or a handful of years?

[Chorus]
I feel unworthy of love
I spent mine like water on everyone
I poured out the best of me
Now there’s barely a drop when you reach for me
I feel unworthy of love
Too many doors, too many vows undone
If you hold me, hold me slow
I’m learning I’m more than the places I go

[Bridge]
Don’t praise the wound for surviving the knife
Don’t make my exhaustion proof I was right
I can draw one clean line and still care what you need
I can leave some light in the house for me

Maybe love isn’t measured by how much I lose
Maybe a yes can be honest, a no can be true
I’m not the sum of the hands I have fed
There is still a pulse here, still blood in my head

[Final Chorus]
I feel unworthy of love
But I’m done spending myself to become someone’s sun
I can keep a little warmth for me
Let it gather slowly, let it teach me to breathe
I feel unworthy of love
Still I’m standing where the old fear was
If you hold me, hold me slow
I’m more than the places I go

[Outro]
I gave too much, but I’m not gone
A heart can close and still beat on
I gave too much, but I’m not gone
I can come back, I can come back