Lock Upon the Door

[Verse 1]
You call when the rent is due
When the lock sticks, when the pipes come loose
I know the code to your back door
The name of the man who lives upstairs
I keep the spare key by the bowl
I know which bills you leave unopened
But when the room is quiet and still
You find a reason to be going

[Pre-Chorus]
You say I make it easier
You say you sleep all right
I hold the weight you hand me
Then disappear from sight

[Chorus]
Do you want me, or the shelter I provide?
Do you miss me, or the steady place to hide?
I give you all my company
You take the safety, leave the rest of me
Over and over, I ask what this is for:
Am I the one you love, or just the lock upon the door?

[Verse 2]
You know my coffee, not my middle name
You know my hands can fix the kitchen drawer
You tell your friends I’m always there
But never say what I am there for
I sit beside you through the bad nights
You lean into me until the morning comes
Then daylight finds you dressed and distant
And I’m back to being useful, never someone

[Pre-Chorus]
You say I make it easier
You say you sleep all right
I hold the weight you hand me
Then disappear from sight

[Chorus]
Do you want me, or the shelter I provide?
Do you miss me, or the steady place to hide?
I give you all my company
You take the safety, leave the rest of me
Over and over, I ask what this is for:
Am I the one you love, or just the lock upon the door?

[Bridge]
I don’t want another thank-you
For the things a lover does
I don’t want to be your refuge
If you never choose us
Say my name when nothing’s broken
Stay when nothing needs repair
Let me be more than the answer
When you’re scared to be alone in there

[Half-Time Breakdown]
If I stop catching every fall
Will you still come when you can stand?
If I have nothing left to offer
Will you reach for my hand?

[Final Chorus]
Do you want me, not the shelter I provide?
Do you miss me when there’s nowhere left to hide?
I gave you all my company
You took the safety, left the rest of me
Over and over, I asked what this was for:
I won’t be just the lock you turn and leave outside the door

[Outro]
Choose me in the quiet
Choose me when you’re whole
I can’t keep being your safe place
While you never make me home