Losing The Thread

[Verse 1]
Sun through the blinds on a Saturday noon
Good news arriving before I can brace
My friends are all laughing, the rent’s paid ahead
Still I’m watching my hands like they’re somebody else’s

[Pre-Chorus]
I know what I have
I can name every good thing
But knowing the answer
Doesn’t stop the sinking

[Chorus]
Why can’t I feel it when everything’s fine?
The day is a gift and I’m losing the thread
I’m grateful, I mean it, I swear that I’m trying
Still there’s a tide pulling hard at my head
Why can’t I feel it, why can’t I land?
A bright life keeps slipping right out of my hands

[Verse 2]
A text from my best friend: “You made it, you’re good”
I read it twice over, then stare at the screen
The garden’s in bloom, there’s a song in the car
And some part of me won’t come back to the scene

[Pre-Chorus]
I know what I have
I can name every good thing
But knowing the answer
Doesn’t stop the sinking

[Chorus]
Why can’t I feel it when everything’s fine?
The day is a gift and I’m losing the thread
I’m grateful, I mean it, I swear that I’m trying
Still there’s a tide pulling hard at my head
Why can’t I feel it, why can’t I land?
A bright life keeps slipping right out of my hands

[Bridge]
Maybe this feeling can sit here awhile
Without getting called the whole truth
I can be thankful and tired at once
I can be here, even halfway through

[Outro]
The sun keeps moving across the same wall
I’m still here, though I can’t feel it all