Thankful and Hurting

[Verse 1]
The good news keeps arriving on time,
A bright green check beside each name.
The rent is paid, the people are kind,
Still my hands forget their aim.
I laugh at the right parts of the story,
Then lose the thread before the end.
Nothing is wrong, I know that clearly—
So why can't I just feel it then?

[Pre-Chorus]
My thoughts trip over every beat,
I count the blessings, miss the ground.
I know I'm safe; I know I'm loved—
Some switch inside won't settle down.

[Chorus]
Everything's good, and I can't get through,
The sun's on the lawn, but I can't feel warm.
I want to be grateful; I want to be moved,
But my heart keeps bracing for a weather alarm.
Everything's good, and I still feel small,
Like joy's right here, but it won't come in.
I know what I have; I can name it all—
Why does the weight keep winning again?

[Verse 2]
A friend sends a photo from the coast,
My name in a toast, my favorite song.
I see the whole frame, I know I'm there,
But some part of me stays gone.
No tragedy hiding under the day,
No secret disaster to uncover.
Just a tired mind pulling the brake
While every good thing keeps rolling forward.

[Bridge]
Maybe I don't have to solve this tonight,
Or turn every feeling into a sign.
I'll tell you the truth while the hour is plain:
I'm thankful—and hurting—at the same time.

[Final Chorus]
Everything's good, and I can't get through,
The sun's on the lawn, but I can't feel warm.
I want to be grateful; I want to be moved,
But my heart keeps bracing for a weather alarm.
Everything's good; let that be true,
And let this hard feeling be true as well.
I'll stay here beside you, not fixed, not fine—
Just letting the two things coexist awhile.

[Outro]
Thankful and hurting,
Both of them mine.