To Find My Mind

[Verse 1]
I packed my bag too fast
Like I could outrun the ache
Your name still on my mouth
Like a promise I can’t break

I’m standing in the doorway
With the weight of all I’ve been
I love you, and I’m scared
Of the person I’m becoming

[Pre-Chorus]
So don’t ask me to stay
When my heart won’t sit still
I’m not leaving you behind
I’m just trying to feel

Who I am in the dark
What I want in the light
If I hold onto us
I might lose my own life

[Chorus]
I don’t want goodbye
I don’t want goodbye
But I need the road
To find my mind

I don’t want goodbye
I don’t want goodbye
If I come back changed
Please still let me try

[Verse 2]
We learned each other’s shadows
We learned the shape of home
But there’s a door inside me
That won’t stay closed for long

I need the scar, the distance
I need the empty space
To hear my own voice clearly
Without your hand in place

[Pre-Chorus]
So don’t ask me to stay
When my heart won’t sit still
I’m not leaving you behind
I’m just trying to feel

Who I am in the dark
What I want in the light
If I hold onto us
I might lose my own life

[Chorus]
I don’t want goodbye
I don’t want goodbye
But I need the road
To find my mind

I don’t want goodbye
I don’t want goodbye
If I come back changed
Please still let me try

[Bridge]
Maybe love can be
A door left cracked
Maybe what we were
Can still come back

I’m not saying forever
I’m saying not yet
I need to meet myself
Before I can fully give

[Final Chorus]
I don’t want goodbye
I don’t want goodbye
But I need the road
To find my mind

I don’t want goodbye
I don’t want goodbye
If I come back changed
Please still let me try

I don’t want goodbye
I don’t want goodbye
And if you still love me
Let me go this time