Hold the In-Between

[Verse 1]
I keep two portraits in the kitchen glass,
one holds the door, one counts what it can take.
You ask me how my day went; I say, “Fine,”
while every borrowed hour bends and shakes.

[Pre-Chorus]
The list is pinned beneath a chipped blue magnet,
your name beside the things I meant to do.
I want the life that waits beyond the calendar,
but every road I dream still runs to you.

[Chorus]
I’m trying to be kind without disappearing,
trying to want more without wanting less of you.
One hand holds the people I would never leave,
one reaches for the life I haven’t lived through.
If happiness is somewhere in this tangle,
let it make room for all the love I mean.
I’m not one face, not one clean answer—
I’m learning how to hold the in-between.

[Verse 2]
The sink is full, the hallway needs its fixing,
your coat is draped across the chair again.
I laugh too loud; the guilty one says, “Selfish,”
the saint says, “Stay,” and neither says when.

[Pre-Chorus]
I know the weight of every promise spoken,
I know the pull of mornings not yet mine.
I can be grateful, tired, fierce, and frightened;
those truths can share the same small room tonight.

[Chorus]
I’m trying to be kind without disappearing,
trying to want more without wanting less of you.
One hand holds the people I would never leave,
one reaches for the life I haven’t lived through.
If happiness is somewhere in this tangle,
let it make room for all the love I mean.
I’m not one face, not one clean answer—
I’m learning how to hold the in-between.

[Bridge]
To everyone I love: I’m still here.
To the self I keep postponing: stay near.
I can change the shape of what I promised,
without turning all this tenderness to fear.

[Final Chorus]
I’m trying to be kind without disappearing,
trying to want more and keep you close too.
One hand holds the people I would never leave,
one opens up a little room for something new.
If happiness is somewhere in this tangle,
we’ll make a place where every heart can breathe.
I’m not one face, not one clean answer—
I’m learning how to live as all of me.

[Outro]
All of me, still here.
All of us, still dear.